I kept hearing people said that I’ve changed. Frankly speaking, I don’t know. I don’t know in which side actually I’ve changed. I guess maybe the way I dress up these days, maybe the way I speak these days, maybe. I don’t know.
But then, changing is an inevitable process. You can’t help but to make a few changes in your life. People says, environment mould you- and that’s what happened to me. Alhamdulillah I learnt a lot during these 7 months in KMM. I realize that I’ve been showered by His infinite blessing. I’m learning to accept my fitrah. I’m learning to accept myself.
And that’s it. People might not know you. And yes, people who know you the least usually judge you the most. This is what I loved, I tend to since forever. To judge me that I’m going down just because I show my true self is unfair tbh because it took blood and tears for me to be able to get up back after I fall so hard. It was a very tough process for me to learn about myself and be used with her and love her.
But thank you and thank you for your endless advices, I truly appreciate it because I’m human too, and I might go astray too. I’ve been very hard with myself these 5 years and I still don’t understand much about her. Thank you to point out the flawless and help me to shine my akhlak more.
Innama a’malu bin niat. O Allah, help me to always purify my intention. This is all for You, and for You only.